I was awake for about an hour in the middle of the night— dreading my stepson, dog, girlfriend, baby, and big toys. I’ve been able to handle a lot of things, but this and the obsessive closeness of the relationship is making things difficult. I’m not complaining. I certainly have had a lot of family issues of my own to deal with— but somehow my girls “assumed” their role of guest and not the roll of entitled inhabitant. When you move into someone else’s house — you forever feel like a tolerated guest regardless of all the feigned Christian platitudes. When you remarry things are never fully us, more like an us, them, and shared interests on occasion. I say this knowing that my wife is my love. She does nice things for my daughters. Maybe it’s the being surrounded by my married family. God will help me as I surrender and look to him.
Today I did the Longwood Loop doing 9.63 miles in 2:24:40 for a 15:01 minute per mile pace with an elevation gain of 380 feet with an average heart rate of 96 bpm at 37 degrees and and 67 percent humidity. Have a blessed day!
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