I woke up, not my best but okay. I got out a bit later, but still allowing to get back in time for my Zoom meetings of the day. I did the Longwood Loop. I was surprised that today was the first day of September. I was not pumped up or motivated, but I am motivated knowing that doing the work always accomplishes the job. I did 9.66 miles in 2:28:27 for a 15:21 minute per mile pace with an elevation gain of 331 feet with an average heart rate of 99 bpm at a temperature of 65 degrees with humidity at 90 percent. I realize that in many ways certain things are declining. My speed, my strength, my recovery etc. The fact that I’m not as proficient doesn’t discourage me. I am motivated by accomplishing the goal even though it may not be what it once was— thank you Lord that I can keep going. There is something special knowing that the 25 plus year habit of going out in the early morning habit is still taking place. I do miss my workouts in Eastport, it is special to me. I do miss those days when my daughters lived with me— when we had each other amidst the turmoil. Somehow in remarriage we have lost the feeling of family. I’ve gained a lifetime partner, but the feeling of family seems to have been lost. I pray that I can get that back. It seems as if we are part of a family (with the exception of my wife) that has never truly accepted or even try to understand us. It’s a hurt that I have tried to deal with, but a solution has not been found. Looking to you Lord.
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