This morning, my alarm actually woke me up. I definitely wasn’t feeling like a spring chicken— more like a Thanksgiving turkey. I read my Bible and started the day. I started walking the Woodlot Loop plus 4 x Woodlot Hill for 3.36 miles, 10 minutes on the recumbent bike, the fabulous 40, and strength band curls and overhead presses. I try to do a few walks around the block at work, plus I have physical therapy tonight.
I have been a bit out of sorts. I do like my job, it’s just the grind is grinding me. I would like to spend a lot more time in Maine and possibly even work there again. I hate the race, race here on Long Island. I also feel so disconnected and not a part of my church where my father in law and wife are the board and pastors. My wife is amazing, loving, and talented. I could not make it without her. My father in law runs the church as the founder and CEO. He is not interested in my ideas or does not see my abilities or worth. It’s been 15 years, and it feels like being in the wilderness. My wife and he fully use their gifts and abilities and , I’m not sure if they see my disillusionment with the church. I know that God is completely in control, but I’m just struggling. Have a blessed day!
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